I used to know you, Dare I say, I used to know you best In such an unusual way. I would read your mind, The way you would mine. Understood you completely. No paths to align. One day, I felt it… Gnawing away at me. Something disturbing, Something I couldn’t let be. It felt like I solved it. Felt like you heard. But again, I was perplexed By another misplaced word. So, I prayed ahead of time. I prayed, yes, for you. I prepared my heart- I knew what I had to do. I no longer knew how to communicate And I didn’t mince a word. I left it hard to swallow. You took it as absurd. I don’t regret- Not the choice I made that day. I do miss feeling understood In a much deeper way. I miss my friend. Really upset that that’s gone, But it’s not the time to dwell, But it is prime time to move on. I imagine you miss me too… A mixture of emotions, I guess. A lot of latent unresolved anger, But nothing you’d openly confess. Then again, I don’t know you And that’s all well in the past. We
How can I say it Silently screaming how I feel Openly out here in secret Where no noise has any appeal Just letting someone Just some nobody know Some random passerby Basking in their phone’s glow I am not okay I should preface this here, but no Just, too much change is stifling The knot in my throat also says so Along with the ache in my neck The trouble I have walking I have a weight in my chest And, yes, I have tried talking This constitutes a crossroads Where I can neither do nor die I have this agitation bubbling up Because no one can understand why Not with so much good happening Yes, a lot is great from this distance Adults not having a plan – We’re far off Not even on the path of least resistance Don’t worry about me much My faith is sturdy and intact No, it’s not that I’m in trouble (And trouble I would not enact) I’m just living out of a suitcase Some forced modern nomad Looking at a room that’s not mine Hearing a new silence that sounds
ProjectsssS》 Been saying I need a new computer for like a decade, but I kept having to put it off - for many understandable and very good reasons, but still super frustrating. =_=### Even this time I missed the major Black Friday discount but was able to still order the computer I've had my eye on. I'm finally going to be able to do digital art on something other than my iPad and I'm hoping it will be worth the wait. I'm also hoping I'll finally be able to create more to upload and use. Lately, I've been fascinated by YouTube videos of airbrushing 3D printed sculptures. Sooo I'm educating myself and now I already have a full airbrush kit. I'm trying to figure out what 3D printer I want (Afterpay is a savior in times like these ...and it works on Amazon & Best Buy...jus' sayin'). It seems daunting to figure everything out and to contemplate whether I'm finally going to teach myself how to 3D sculpt, but I'm up for the challenge...once I finally move out that is. And looks like I'll